so school is out. whoooohhoooo... at least i dont have to go back for two more weeks. yay me.. i hate that i have to go to summer school, but at least im getting the fuck out next year..i cant take it here anymore. im sick of my family, sick of my friends, and just sick in the head in general....
it seems like lately the best thing for me to do is keep my shit to myself.and it just seems like i cant even talk to anyone at the moment, not even if i wanted to.and i do wanna talk to my girlfriend, but some things are just hard right now and im not so sure why.
my mom just left about 20 mins ago,shes on her way to go see my dad and without even telling me til last night. -sigh-
i bet she needs to find a way to get away too..like she always does. shes never home.always gambling and if not drinking. yay me.i get to get stuck with seeing that all the time.. and its just getting worse.
my friends have all just...gotten crazy. well maybe thats just me. they think i dont want to hang out with them anymore and think i dont want to have fun... so they told me to call them when im being a real friend and want to actually hang out with them.great. thats all i fucking need right now..
nothing i should be complaining about though i mean, i got it way better then most people..
i need a job..gotta get one soon or my moms gonna flip on me... she already threatened to kick me out the other day.said im a worthless bitch and need to start doing something. on top of all that im too fat.
great.
there starts my diet.
i planned on starting one this summer anyway so might as well.
i hate waking up everyday to hearing that. hearing that im fat and worthless. -sigh-
oh well maybe im starting to think that its true...

my girlfriend and i are going on 8 months now. =]. shes the only thing that makes me so happy right now.i wish she would understand that. the only thing is ive been freaking out on her alot and i dont understand why... i just wanna hug her and slill everything to her but then the cage im in just closes. katelyn, i hope you understand that i do plan on talking to you.you mean everything to me and i dont wanna loose you... lately thats what ive been afraid of....

-sigh- well im done talking about whats pathetic.. i gotta go.

me